Tuesday, March 23, 2010

The Consequences of My Actions

I have put off writing today's post for as long as I can. I've been procrastinating because I'm wracked with guilt. But, I need to absolve myself of my wrong doings.

Here is my apology to you, à la Tiger Woods.

I have let you all down. For two days straight, there was no reason for me to eat in an unhealthy way, and yet, there was no stopping me either.

Sunday, I ate badly and promised myself I'd do better on Monday. I've told myself that before.

Yesterday, I started off well. I had a healthy breakfast, followed by a healthy lunch. I worked out and ate a healthy dinner. Then the evening rolled in and I couldn't keep my grubby mitts out of the snack cupboard.
When my little binge was over, I felt awful. I had not only made myself sick, I had let myself down terribly, and I knew I was going to have to fess up to it today on this blog. (See, the blog is working. It's keeping me accountable.)

I downed a couple of glasses of water and told myself to start fresh again in the morning, which I've done. So far, today I've done well. I've been eating well, I did a good, hard, no slacking workout and I even planned the family meals for the next few days. I'm pretty on top of things.

I don't think I'll do wrong like that again, for a while. The emotional consequences are too grave. I'm glad you guys are here to keep me on the straight and narrow.


  1. Hmmm...publicly admitting one's shortcomings and indiscretions while dieting. So you're not supposed to have the 'no one saw me, you can't prove anything' attitude. Well, I may have just figured out something. LOL! Good for you getting back on track. Fingers crossed I'm right behind you.

  2. Jen, I am glad to see you are normal. We all do that, I do it more than I like. I find I usually do it out of boredom. I noticed that today, it was the first time I was home by myself in 10 days and I could not stop eating so I started drinking tea. A good thing is you did feel bad about it so I don't think it will be come a habit. Don't be so hard on yourself.

  3. Many hugs... I hate feeling like that...

  4. The beef jerky doesn't have any carbs (or barely any). I'd eat that, for sure. :)

    No need to fess up to me. I know the feeling. Been there done that and will probably do it again. LOL

    Good job getting back on the wagon!

  5. Ugh potato chips are so manipulative.... calling you over, making empty promises, then using you for their own selfish need to feel wanted! A bag of cheezies did the same thing to me saturday night. That's why I couldn't bring myself to check in on monday :(

    But if it helps ease the pain I gave you an award the other day.... http://thisorthehousework.blogspot.com/2010/03/beautiful-blogger

  6. Thanks for the support everybody. Nobody's perfect - certainly not me.

    You're right Kat, chips are manipulative but I'm in an abusive relationship with ice cream. I think it's time to call the divorce lawyers. Ice cream and I are through.

    Oh, who am I kidding - I have my own ice cream maker in the trailer! Sigh, oh ice cream. I can't stay mad at you.

  7. AAhh don't beat yourself up over it Jen, I've just had 2 glasses of red wine and a cheese panini and feel really guilty. Will start afresh tomorrow!

  8. Uggh, cheese panini! That sounds sooo good. I'm Starvin' Marvin right now.

  9. Good for you for fessing up and then turning it around. We all do it!
    Stopping by from SITS.

  10. I did that same thing on Friday really badly. I've been good for the rest of the week though. I've been drinking a lot of coffee...I know it's suppose to be unhealthy but it sure does keep the weight off and is more socially acceptable than smoking lol