It's time to give a progress or regress report.
This week was a total waste, at my end. I couldn't get my act together. My motivation was down the toilet and I did very little of value. No exercise, little house work, very little writing and I ate like I just didn't care anymore.
You know what I think the problem is? I think I'm sick of it. I'm sick of dieting. I'm sick of having "workout 'til you feel like puking" on my to-do list every day. More than anything, I'm sick of shopping around the perimeter of the grocery store, looking for fresh, healthy foods that never satisfy a single craving.
So I rebelled.
But, in juxtaposition to my rebellion, I am DESPIRATE to NEVER be fat again. I hate that I've gained back some of the weight I lost. I hate that I feel less elegant than I did a year ago. I hate that I'm currently stuffing myself into cloths that should fit properly.
I went for a run today. It didn't go well. I started out too aggressively and about two thirds of the way through I was defeated by the heat and had to walk home. Never-the-less, I feel better now than I would have if I'd done nothing...vanquished as I am.
I'm going to take it one day at a time this week and get my head back on straight. My inner foodzilla may have won the battle, but she will not win the war.
Hey Jen -
ReplyDeleteI say GOOD FOR YOU for going out in this humid heat for a run. I resolved to at least get on the treadmill today....and that was at 9am. Ha! I'm going to do it....after this post. Promise. :)
BTW - how do you like the fitness blogging? I've been thinking about starting my own. You know, part accountability, part support from the blogosphere. Do you like it?
Marcie
xo
I've had weeks like that for the last few weeks. Put what little I had lost back on. Just didn't give a crap about it. This week however has been better. I have discovered that I get a much better cardio workout on the bike at the Y than the treadmill. So I have switched to that. (However, it is harder on the poor little tushy!!) Have also been doing some strength training as well.
ReplyDeleteAnd I am down 5lbs this week!!
Good job Niki. Strength training is like a magical secret to weight loss. Keep doing that, for sure.
ReplyDeleteMarcie, I do like fitness blogging. It's fun when other people are participating too. Not to mention, it gives you a place to vent, lol
I agree with you I am sick of dieting. I am thinking I might take the summer off, and just try my best to make good food choices and try and get some exercise.
ReplyDeleteMy goal is to remain the same weight. Overall I am happy with the way I look. Yes I would like to lose a few more pounds but I am sure it will happen overtime. I will start up again in the fall since I find I eat more in the cooler months.
I will still weigh in on fridays with you and report in.
Hey, I'm late but here. I lost 2 lbs last week. worked out 3 days and ate very well until we went camping on the weekend and I muched on crap all weekend. I just got out of the rut that you are in. I stopped dieting, stopped working out. stopped everything. I started to notice that I looked like I put on weight so I started back on my diet again. I think I needed a break from thinking about it everyday. Now I'm re energized
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